Are you "Faking" it???

First off get your mind out of the gutter!!! This isn't THAT kind of blog :)

The post over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans today is all about faking it... Faking the exercise that is. Or making excuses... you really should stop off at the Sisterhood and check out the amazing support that they have to offer us all.

I can admit... I fake it. I make these amazing plans to exercise, I even have a gym membership that we pay for every month on a very limited budget....and yet I still don't do it.

I was doing really well for awhile...until something happened at the childcare center at the gym and now my 3 yr old won't even go near the place... so finding time to exercise at the gym has gotten more difficult strictly because of that...and try convincing your husband that you want the tv so you can do your fitness stuff ( I mean seriously... I have plenty... I have the Wii Fit, The EA Active and EA Active 2,) when all he wants to do is watch his tv and relax after a busy day at work... and don't you dare even think of trying to convince him to do it with you... that would just be asking for a fight.

I fake it.... but not anymore. Starting tomorrow today I will really do it...even if it is just walking up and down the stairs of my house... I WILL DO IT... I'm also going to be on the look out for a treadmill or eliptical machine for the basement...

Happy Thursday everyone!!!

Update on my personal goals:
Did really well with eating yesterday and my water consumption wasn't what I set it for but I did accomplish 1/2... and I am already past that for today :)

The Power of One- Starting Day

Today is the beginning of the latest challenge that has been issued by my amazing (and supportive) friends over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans. This challenge is different the past few challenges as it is all about me...or in your case YOU. There will be no teams and it is strictly all on me on how well I do during this challenge.

I know that when the Sisterhood started up with all the 'teams' stuff I was kind of a whiney bitch about it leery of having to pull my weight and the weigh of a team... but then I turned into that person that probably no one wanted on their team. I was trying... just not very hard and not enough to make myself feel happy. I mean I watched what I ate as it went into my mouth and exercised barely and not really at a good level to even call it exercise  but this time it is all on me. That certainly doesn't mean that I won't still have my amazing friends here to support me... I mean these gals (and guys) are amazing! They really do care about me and my fat ass... they want me to get healthy...they want me to succeed and be at a healthy weight for my children, my family but most importantly they want me to get healthy for  ME.

As moms and wives,  we tend to not put ourselves first. We tend to spend so much time taking care of everyone else and making certain that everyone's needs are met that we forget about ourselves... heck even the dog has been to the vet twice this year for her check ups and I still haven't gone... so that is what makes this challenge a bit more special for me... its all about me. So here is where I put pictures of my fat butt online (again) along with my measurements and weight and promptly say good bye because those numbers need to leave the building...forever.

Starting Weight for Challenge: 254.2 lbs
Starting Measurements: I measured on my right side
Arm: 14 inches
Chest: 52 1/2 inches
Waist: 50 inches
Hips: 56 inches
Thigh: 27 inches

The challenge for today (the starting day of the challenge... it goes through Feb 23rd) was to STATE YOUR HEALTHY LIVING GOALS for this challenge and the New Year. No, we’re not calling them resolutions, because that is so last week. We are calling them goals, because goals are awesome. You can make mini-goals, short-term goals, long-term goals, or just plain goals. They can focus on anything from pounds you want to lose to races you want to compete in. However you want to do it, just make sure you get it done, okay?!

So here is my list of HEALTHY LIVING GOALS:

• lose at least 13 pounds. Why 13 pounds? Because that is 5% loss goal for weight watchers
• exercise at least twice (hopefully 3 ) a week
• drink my water.... 8 glasses... EXCEPT I am using my new Tupperware BPA Free 26 ozs water bottle as my 'glass'... so that means 208 ozs of water each day.-- so if you call me and I don't answer... I'm probably going pee... AGAIN.
• cook a healthy dinner every night to include a healthy balance of protein, carbs, vegs etc. 
• in addition to cooking healthy meals... watch portion sizes. 3ozs = size of a deck of cards etc
• eat to live and not live to eat

I think these are reasonable goals...and honestly if my local girls see me not at least attempting to follow through with these... please kick my ass... a good ole ass kicking may very well be exactly what I need to get my fat ass in gear.

Happy Shrinking Ladies (and gentlemen) and don't forget it isn't too late to join the challenge... please do so because when it comes to friends who are going through the weight loss process with you... more really is merrier.

New Challenge Coming up

The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans has a new challenge that will begin on December 29th, and I am really excited about it. The past few challenges have been 'team' challenges at the Sisterhood and this latest challenge will be us on our own.... we of course will still have the amazing support of our awesome friends at the Sisterhood, but it will be all on us personally to do it.

The new Challenge is going to be called the "Power of One". You can sign up for the new challenge already all you have to do is pop on over to the Sisterhood and sign up with their simple and easy form. You KNOW you want to :)

Here is a direct link to the upcoming challenge:
http://shrinkingjeans.net/2010/12/announcementpower-of-one-challenge

Hope to see you there :)

HELP!!! I am fat and its Christmas!!!

Christmas is less than a week away and I don't know about you guys but in my family this week is all about Christmas goodies and food and family *insert eyeroll here*.

Even though I am a member of a family with 75% of us overweight the bad choices still are rampant in my family. I have try each year to bring 'healthy' options to our family potluck but I am often met with eye rolls and comments about "that's not good stuff".

Well this year I am not letting others affect the choices of myself or my children. That does not mean that I am going to be the 'cookie nazi' and not let my children have sweets or goodies etc but I can make sure that they have healthy breakfasts before we go to our potlucks and I can also help them make healthy choices at our meals as well.

I was just wondering how others are going to be battling all the unhealthy choices this week? I know that I am going to snack on healthy foods before I go to the pot luck, I will also be bring healthy choices as our contribution to the meal. I am planning on drinking ALOT of water rather than the beverages that I know will be served, and I am hoping to get in a little bit of exercise as well.

Good luck everyone!!!

Holiday Hoedown Check-in: Week 4

 

Today is Wednesday, which means it's weigh in day for the weekly challenge and for myself. And I have to say that it has taken me since 7am this morning when I stepped on my scale to be able to sit down and write this post... you see that is because this week my weight was 253.6 lbs  which means not only am I up from last week, it also means that I have gained back ALL my weight from this challenge plus more... 1.4 lbs to in fact. 

Here are my goals for the following week:.

• begin the 9 week program that is part of the EA Sports Active2, that I happened to win during International Fitness Day from my amazing friends at Shrinking Jeans
  
• Consume my weight (in ounces) of water each day
  
• Track all my food using the new Weight Watchers Plus Points System
  
• Watch portion sizes. Even though I have been attempting to following the WW program I have not been the best at measuring out my portion sizes...which we all know is a BIG PROBLEM
  
• Take a few minutes to myself each day
  
• Limit late night snacking and watch alcohol consumption... these all add up

Weigh in Wednesday

Today is Wednesday and we all know what that means in weight loss land... WEIGH IN DAY!!!! :)

Today is the week 3 weigh in for the latest challenge over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans. My weight today was 250 lbs straight up. So far I have lost 2.2lbs for the challenge and that is ok... I am really hoping that slow and steady wins the race and in this case the race is the race for my health and my life.

I have set up some goals for myself for the week and they are as follows:

• begin the 9 week program that is part of the EA Sports Active2, that I happened to win during International Fitness Day from my amazing friends at Shrinking Jeans
• Consume my weight (in ounces) of water each day
• Track all my food using the new Weight Watchers Plus Points System
• Watch portion sizes. Even though I have been attempting to following the WW program I have not been the best at measuring out my portion sizes...which we all know is a BIG PROBLEM
• Take a few minutes to myself each day
• Limit late night snacking and watch alcohol consumption... these all add up

I think these are some good goals for the week! Good luck everyone!!!

Weigh in Wednesday

Today starts a new challenge over at the sisterhood... I don't have time to do a bit post (I'll do it later today)... but I wanted to report my weight for this week so that I don't forget it. 252.2 lbs. I am up .6 from last week.

Weigh in Wednesday

While there is technically no challenge currently going on at the Sisterhood, I wanted to still keep on track with my weigh ins etc. This week my weight is 251.6, that means that I have lost one pound since last week at this time, and honestly... I'll take it :) Its not much but I haven't had any exercise at all so I will definately take it.

I heard a 'rumor' that a new challenge will be starting over at the sisterhood next week, so pop in and check it out.

Weekly Shrinking Jeans Check-In and FINAL shrinkvivor

Today is the final weigh in for the Shrinkvivor challenge over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans. The winners of both the Entire Challenge as well as the exile island will be announced tomorrow, but in my book... WE ARE ALL WINNERS. We have won our HEALTH!!! We have won the ability to learn to track calories, exercise and in some cases we have been lucky enough to develop a new habit because of the challenges that we were issued during this event. I know I for one now get my 5 servings of fruits and vegetables when I didn't use to, and water really is my best friend. I wish I could say that I NEVER hit the drive thru, but I can tell you that since starting this challenge I have made MUCH BETTER CHOICES. Subway has become a family favorite...even for me and I HATE sandwiches. Its just as quick and easy as those other fast food places, but it is so much more healthy.

My weight today is 252.6lbs. that means that for this whole challenge I have lost 7.4lbs. I'll take it :) Especially since when my tribe was sent to Exile, I had a hard time getting back on the program... but I have a renewed faith in myself and my abilities to lose weight. I know that I will succeed in this journey... Heck I've lost 2 lbs since Monday when I got back on board (probably all water weight from my gallons of water each day).

Yesterday I did the 'butt buster' hill with a close friend of mine. I have talked myself out of doing that hill numerous times with her... but honestly, it wasn't that bad... I survived... and you why... because I am a survivor :)

Happy Journey everyone!!!

I turned 30 yesterday...

Yesterday was the day that I joked about for years. My 30th birthday. I often joked that for my 30th birthday I would be getting myself a tummy tuck and a breast reduction... well because I am still way to big to even think about contemplating those things I am using my 30th birthday as a starting off point (again). I have decided that I am going to really do this...getting healthy thing. I need to do it, not only for my own health but for the health of my children.

I will still be participating in the different challenges that are going on through the amazing folks at Shrinkings Jeans, tracking my points using the Weight Watchers Online Tools, as well as tracking my Exercise using DailyMile.

Awhile back there was a day in which alot of people posted pictures of themselves in just their undergarments, and well I'm not quite there yet, so these pictures are as close as you are gonna get :) These pictures were taken this morning (November 1st, 2010). My weight this morning was 254.6 lbs 

Wish me luck folks....

Struggling

Boy am I really struggling this week. I just can not get my poop in a group. I spent pretty much all day Saturday eating crap ( and I do mean crap, candy coated pretzels, candy, cup cakes and don't forget the alcohol consumption), I can tell you that my eating was MUCH better yesterday... but mostly because my head, stomach and liver hurt far too much to even want to consume anything.

I have GOT to get back on track... especially now more than ever. Pretty soon it is going to get cold outside and I am going to be able to talk myselt out of walks and exercise but I have a HUGE motivator going on right now... my little brother (technically my cousin) got engaged over the weekend, and well let's be honest.... no one wants to be the fat girl in the wedding pictures... So here is to a renewed challenge for myself.

Oh.. but I have been praciticing my 'fastest' mile-- right now I am WALKING it at 14 minutes, getting my 5 servings of fruits and vegs, drinking my water, etc.

Shrinkvivor Challenge Weigh-in #3

Well I survived last week, but not sure I will again this week. Today's weight is 253 lbs which gives me a loss of only 2.4 lbs for this, with a total loss for the challenge so far of 7 pounds for the challenge, which I am certainly happy with.

As for the other challenges this week I think I did ok. I did falter the first day out of the gate on the 'no drive thru" because I had purchased a brewed coffee from a local coffee store. But honestly I'm not even sure that is a mess up lol, but if it is it is and I did not meet the challenge, but I did not do it again... in fact I think I will celebrate by buying myself  a latte later *I kid*

The other part of the challenge for this week was to track your minutes of exercise. I was able to log over 450 minutes of exercise this past week.... I was VERY impressed with myself. This was one of the few times that me being slow worked to my benefit :)

Here are my personal goals for this week, I will add the challenge goals once they are announced:

• no late night snacking, except for Thursdays which seems to be my 'night out'
• limit the crap I eat
• Journal my food using Weight Watchers e-tools
• Follow my Weight Watcher's Plan
• Take a few minutes every day for myself
• Drink at least 130 ozs of water each day 

I do have the added challenge that it is a friend's wedding party this weekend (they were married over Labor Day weekend in a destination wedding and are now celebrating locally with friends and family here), so I know that is gonna be a doozy for me to handle, but I know that I can do this. It's all worth it in the end. I mean really... even if I get sent to Exile, or voted off completely, or don't win this game... I will be a winner anyways strictly in the fact that I will be healthier than when I started and to me... that means WAY MORE than any prizes, buttons or bragging rights.

Have a good week everyone!

GO TRIBE PUT THE "LIME" IN THE COCONUT!!!!

Shrinkvivor Challenge Weigh-in #2

 

I wish I could tell you if I was safe this week... but I can't. That information will be posted tomorrow * I believe*, but I can tell you that I worked my ass off, literally. Part of the Shrinkvivor Challenge is that each week we receive 2 challenges, 1 is a physical challenge and the 2nd is a non-physical challenge. The challenges for last week was to *physical* Log miles... and the second *non physical* was to drink 1/2 your weight in oz of water each day. I accomplished both of these challenges and actually shocked myself with the amount of miles that I logged.... you see I logged 17.5 miles in the 5 days that the challenge ran, I was pretty impressed.... tired but impressed. I also was able to drink my 130oz of water each day and on a few days drank even more than that.... and you know what IT PAID OFF!!! How do I know that you ask? Because you see I lost 4.6 lbs this week because my scale told me this morning that I now weight 255.4 lbs. I am pretty impressed with that number... granted it is still 100 lbs from where I want to be, but each step will get me one step closer to my ultimate goal... and that isn't a size, or a weight... it is being healthy. 

I was almost giddy this morning when I reported my weight via the link, I was even more giddy when I logged in my miles and in my water consumption :) I was so proud of myself. 

My goals for this week are basically the same as last week, but I have added in the challenges for this week as well so here are my goals for the next week:

• no late night snacking, except for Thursdays which seems to be my 'night out'
• limit the crap I eat
• Journal my food using Weight Watchers e-tools
• Follow my Weight Watcher's Plan
• Take a few minutes every day for myself
• Drink at least 130 ozs of water each day
• keep track of the MINUTES that I exercise... must be active exercise *this is the physical challenge for this week*
• NO DRIVE THRU... no fast food. NONE. *this is the non physical challenge*.

And because Ryan @No More Bacon, loves it so much*hee hee* here is my shout out to my girls

GO TRIBE PUT THE LIME IN THE COCONUT!!!!!

Shrinkvivor Challenge Weigh-in #1

Today is the first day of the latest challenge over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans...and let me tell you for the first time since I have begun doing challenges with ShrinkingJeans I am a bit scared. You see this challenge is bigger than just losing weight and seeing who loses the most etc. With this challenge your own team can vote you off. Not a problem right... just lose your weight and your fine.... NOPE!!!! Sorry folks that isn't how this challenge works. You see you can be voted off for losing weight and being a threat just as easy as you can be voted off for not losing weight. You can be voted off simply because no one likes you ... well not really because all the ladies (and guys) over at Shrinking Jeans are amazing and are so easy to like... but no really. There is one way to be safe and that is to get the Immunity Idol *but I'm still not sure how to do that lol*

I have been lucky enough to have been place on Tribe Lime and am already loving the ladies who I am on the team with... :) It is going to be too hard for me to vote anyone off so I honestly believe that I am just going to leave mine spot on the form blank -- you see if no one is voted off then the team member with the lowest % of loss will be voted off.

So here are my stats for today the first weigh in. I am officially 260 lbs on the nose.

My goals this week are the following:

• no late night snacking, except for Thursdays which seems to be my 'night out'
• drink my water
• limit the crap
• Journal my food using Weight Watchers e-tools
• Follow my Weight Watcher's Plan
• Take a few minutes every day for myself

Here is to an amazing new challenge for everyone involved and of course a little shout out to my girls
GO TRIBE LIME!!!!!

True Confessions Tuesday

Tomorrow starts the new CHALLENGE over at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans, so I want to prep myself with a good old fashioned cleanse before it starts, but not the kind of cleanse that costs lots of money and makes me and my stomach miserable for days.... nope I am getting all the 'bad' out there and just letting it go from here, so here is my True Confessions Tuesdays.

1. I have been eating like crap lately. In all honesty though, I have been doing it on purpose. You see I knew that this day was coming and I wanted to get my REALLY bad stuff out of the way ( you know like the cheese buttons we had for dinner last night). 
2. Emotionally I have been stuck in my trunk.. (this is a reference to the conscious discipline parenting style, meaning that I am not thinking things through)... some of it is the fault of others, but in the end it still comes back to how I let other people affect me and my emotions. Just because someone is a jerk to me doesn't mean that I have to be a jerk to other people.
3. I am completely lacking the ability to say "no" lately. This is one of the BIG things about my ADD that really gets me in trouble. I spread myself far to thin and because of my wonderful horrid organizational and time management skills I end up in ALOT of trouble.
4. Exercise has been a demon I have had no desire to exercise from my life... yesterday was literally the FIRST time I went for a walk in MONTHS... 
5. My house is a disaster. Nothing in its place and no place for anything
6. School is kicking my ass the semester, but this is because I am not really giving it the all that it deserves.
7. I miss my friends. I have been working several mornings each week, and while I get to hang out with one of my friends while I do it, I still miss my other friends too.
8. My parenting lately has certainly been less than stellar... again I have been hanging out in my trunk and really need to work myself into my engine.
9. I want a pair of jeans that fits that does NOT have a 2 as the first number of it
10. I will try to be more positive and gracious. My life may not be the way that I want it, nor is it perfect, but it is still better than the lives that some have.

Ok... that's my purge for today... Good luck to everyone who is participating in the Shrinking Jeans Challenge for this next challenge.

Back in the saddle.....again

Today is Wednesday and as I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth I heard something in the bathroom corner SCREAMING my name... it was the scale. You see my scale misses me... why you ask? Because I haven't stepped on it in almost 2 months (June 2nd), so I thought I'd get back in the game. It is going to be a bit harder to exercise right now because I have a foot that is pretty banged up ( a sprain, torn ligament and a few cracked bones) that I have been told to stay off of unless it is necessary.... so here goes.

Today's weight is 262.8 lbs isn't that a lovely number... :( *insert puke and gag here*


I have not set a goal for weight loss this week but to make better choices. Like WATER!!! Hello? DRINK IT lady! and to get 5 servings of vegetables/day...

Good luck to everyone else who is on the journey to lose weight.

Weigh In Wednesday : Shrinking Days of Summer week 1

Today was the first weigh in for the newest challenge over at the Sisterhood. And I have to say I have done mighty well this week.... today's weight was 254.8 lbs which is a loss of 4.8 pounds... I'm good with that.

These next two weeks are going to get interesting as I am heading to New York City Sunday morning with my aunt and cousins and let's just say that I know its going to be hard considering that a visit HERE is on tap and several other amazing NYC places to eat. I am hoping that my lack of funds for the trip will limit the horrible eating.

Good luck to everyone!

Wake up Wednesday.... (also called weigh in Wednesday)

This weekend was a wake up call for me... I was photographed in a swim suit with my son...

This picture is by far the worst of them.... I look like a floating head on a blob of fat... :( But I will get better. I really think that obesity is an illness and we need to heal ourselves from it and the cause of it. I mean I know for me personally that I eat for several reasons... and none of them are to nourish my body... I eat 1) when I'm stressed 2) when I'm lonely 3)when I'm bored and lastly 4) I eat to cover my pain. Let's face it we all have pain whether it be physical or emotional we all have those moments where we look around and go "Oh my... this is my life. What have I become?"... and well frankly... I have become FAT... I have become FAT, UNHAPPY, MISERABLE... and it is time for a change.

Today I was told that my 46 year old uncle has a 95% blockage in the right side of his heart and he is currently still experiencing alot of pain that is un-explained.... he needs prayers. But this is also part two of my wake up call.... my uncle is healthy (aside from the smoking)... in fact he is one of the more healthier ones of my maternal relatives...

So today is day one (again)... I weigh 259.6 lbs and I am going to get better... I am going to beat this....

Start of a new challenge... Shrinking Days of Summer

Today is the first day of the newest challenge at the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans. This new challenge will run from today Wednesday, May 26th until July 21, 2010. This will take us through a few of those 'bad' summer eating weekend to include Memorial Day and also the Fourth of July.  Here are some of the details that I stole from the author of the latest post at Shrinking Jeans  borrowed from the Sisterhood. I certainly hope that they don't mind....
OK, here are the deets for the new challenge:

• 8 weeks long (Starting today May 26, Ending July 21st)
• Mini challenges every week, running Sunday-Saturday (basically we will give you a task, whether fitness-related, health-related, mental well-being or whatever and each of us will focus on that task for the week)

• Be on the lookout for a new *Family* challenge that we will be starting in conjunction with our friends over at Weight Watchers.  It will be fantastically awesome and something that you can do with your children!
• We’ve created a group over at the ‘Hood specifically for this challenge.  If you are already a member of the ‘Hood, then head on over there and RSVP for some extra support.  If you aren’t a member yet, then click here to become a member and then join our new Shrinking Days of Summer group.  I’m here to tell you that the ‘Hood is awesome and a great tool to receive and give extra support for your journey. 
• Weigh in every Wednesday (including today).  Let us know how you did- how much did you lose/gain, what struggles did you have, what were the positives of the week.  Blog about it and post the link in the comments.  You will do this every week : ).

This Sisterhood also has a fun new posting schedule for their blog as well. if you want to check it out then go ahead and visit THIS POST RIGHT HERE rather than me snaking even more of their post for the day. 

So today I start my challenge weighing 259.6lbs... this is right where I was a year ago... :( I need to stop this... Here goes!!!

Exercise Day...

Today was an exercise day for me... I met with some friends at the mall for a good hard walk and I have to say that I am pretty excited about what I accomplished. Today was also the first day that I used my new pedometer that works with my DS and a game called My Weight Loss Coach.

When I arrived to the mall I had walked just under 300 hundred steps and by the time I was done at the mall I had walked 11077 steps which converts to 5.2 miles. I know that doesn't sound like much considering I have friends who are training for a 1/2 marathon to support the Leukemia and Lymphoma society but I thought it was damn good for me :) This comes out to having burned roughly 1462 calories since I walked at a fairly good pace for 150 minutes....

I even have an awesome battle wound to show for all my amazing efforts in the last week:

My toenail is PURPLE...

and yes... it hurts as bad as it looks....

May is Running Month....

At the Sisterhood of Shrinking Jeans that is.... :) You see the girls over at the Sisterhood will be tying up the laces tight on June 6th and running the San Diego Rock N Roll 1/2 Marathon. This marathon is run with the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Team in Training Group.  The gals (and guys) over at the sisterhood want to celebrate their last month of training and have asked for us to help spread the word not only on running for a better life but also for their cause.

If you are interested in donating to the amazing cause of the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society please do so by visiting   my dear friend Melissa's site and donate to an amazing cause that is near and dear to my heart as well... because as of April 2010 I have been leukemia free for 14 years....

Weigh-in Wednesday and a New Challenge

It's Wednesday and on Wednesdays I do this horribly awful thing called weighing in and then to make it even horrible and aweful motivating I post it not only on the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans website, I post it to my personal blog two places that the world can see it.... ugh.

Well this week at the Sisterhood starts a new and fun challenge called "21 Days"... this challenge is based off the fact that it takes 21 days to form a GOOD habit so in addition to keeping track of our weight loss and such we are also going to be working hard on forming some new habits. Below you will find a sample list from the Sisterhood.

Here are some great habits that come to our minds:

1. Water intake = minimum of 64 ounces a day
2. Fruits and vegetables = 5 servings a day
3. Dairy = 3 low-fat servings a day
4. Eat breakfast
5. Take a multi-vitamin
6. Exercise = 30 minutes a day
7. No nachos or chocolate cupcakes
8. Sleep = more than you are now
9. Go Whole = eat only whole grains
10. Stretch your body, try it for 5 minutes every morning
11. Pick up the clutter around my house every evening (gag)
12. Shower every day : )
13. Track calories or WW points every single day 

They have challenged us to pick 1-3 of these new habits and go from there... and honestly this has been really hard for me because I want to take them all :) I have highlighted the ones that I want to work on and have given myself a few additional goals.
I found that when I 'assigned' myself weekly goals I did a lot better than I have been. I am not going to lie... I am almost back to where I started at this time last year... I am 10 lbs away from having gained it all back and that scares the shit out of me... I don't want to be the 'fat' mom.... I want to be the mom that my kids are proud to say "that's my mom".... so here are this weeks stats and goals:

Today's weight is 250.8 lbs.

My goals that I have set for myself this week are:

• Drink 200 ozs of water each day
• Track all my weight watch points and stay on point
• exercise for at least 30 minutes each day
• start and complete week 1 of C25K.
• no late night snacking
• take it super easy when I go out with friends *this has been what has been killing me*

I think that is good for this week... here is to an amazing week for all of us.... Good luck ladies (and gentlemen)

Weigh-in Day

I will normally do weigh ins on Wednesday as part of my being a member of the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans but I really wanted to get some 'numbers' up here so this is what I have from this morning's weigh in:

Starting Weight: 252.6 lbs

I am right back where I started.... :( but thankfully I have the ability to start over and this time I want to succeed not for anyone but myself. Here's hoping...

Day One...kind of

Today is the first day of the rest of my life...

Ok so that sounded completely cheesy and even I want to vomit and I am the one who wrote it. I have decided to keep my weight loss blog separate from the family blog for a couple reasons the first being the our family blog is linked to my Facebook page and frankly I don't care to have everyone I went to high school know just how fat I am... Ok so they can SEE how fat I am but they certainly do not need to see the numbers in actual print on the computer.

Another reason I wanted this was so that I could do all of my tracking and such in one place. So here goes... the first day of the rest of my life....will be tomorrow :)